Mark this day, and watch the outcome. I’m finally putting my feelings and wellness first.
No more compromise for the status quo or negotiating between what my gut says and what I think the numbers reveal. If you know me well, you probably can’t imagine that I’ve every done anything but what I want to do. For the most part, that is largely true.
Like most people, I’ve been very bad at calculating outcomes when the numbers don’t match up with my gut.
My gut is almost always right. Virtually every time I do the safe thing instead of the thing that feels good, it bombs. But, more importantly I just want to always be in a joyous state. So, no more miserable commitments. If it’s not joyful, I’m done with it.
This is a big deal to me. Most of my life, I’ve operated on numbers, conservatively. Sure, I’ve made gambles and done what I want. But, I’ve always been calculated and careful. I seldom go all in on risky ideas. I often compromise with people that I respected or thought may have more understanding than me. It has never paid off.
I’m staring down the barrel at 50. It’s coming up fast.
And, I’m just not in the mood to compromise anymore.
First off, no more late nights and early mornings. I need to feel good. Yes, I can grind through it. I have nothing to prove to anyone. This is a long game, and I need to be on my toes throughout. So, I need to be rested.
I’m also leaning hard into my intuition. It’s always been right. Every time I try to go logic instead of gut, I get stuck in a bad situation. So, that’s out the window.
People who make me feel good, get more of my time. People who wear me out are out.
If you’re in my life, I’m paying more attention to how we make each other feel. It’s a top priority now.